Waiting... Sometimes Patience is Hard Work

I contacted an agent a little over a month ago, and have been sitting, waiting for a reply back. For a few weeks after sending out the proposal, I found I couldn't even look back at my book. I didn't write at all and then tried working on my next novel, but found I kept hitting roadblocks, so I put it aside and started back up on my book series. The very first book series which came to me as a senior in College, but not even that appeased my anxiety. With the encouragement of family, I was able to get back to editing my novel for the fourth time since I've completed it. But it's all just a cover for how anxious and worried I am about not hearing back from the agent yet.

I know what everyone says about agents, how they are hard to find, especially now. Some people have to search for months and years on end before an agent will pick them up. Fear and anxiety of not hearing back constantly plagues me. Did they not like what I wrote? Was it not good enough? Was it not something they are looking for? Is there something I could do to change it just enough to get them to like it? Of course with that question comes my side of no, I wrote what I wrote. I am NOT changing it. Maybe some slight changes here and there, but I refuse to majorly change the story. But no matter what, the questions over not receiving a response yet still bothers me. I want to hear back. I want to know what they think, even if it is a "no." I'm getting tired of the suspense.

A verse that constantly plays in my mind, again and again as a form of encouragement and a push to keep going, trusting, and relying on God.

Psalm 27: 14 - "Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord."
Psalm 37: 7 - "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him...."
Psalm 46: 1 - "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."
Isaiah 41: 10 - "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 40: 30-31 - "Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."

If you are writing or not writing, going through trials or struggling, perhaps the verses will give you courage to keep pushing on, trudging through the thick mud trying to stop you from plodding on.

Many Blessings,

J.C. Hart